“There is just wonder right in front of us, and we don’t spend enough time thinking about it.”
Alas, We cannot change the hurt and disappointment of our childhoods. You are not alone. Lisa Hutchins wrote of abandonment, betrayal and feeling not worthy in her book “Daddy, I Left You for Dead”. She dealt with this throughout her life and you can also.
“To die, it’s easy. But you have to struggle for life.”
From Maus, I: A Survivor’s Tale: My Father Bleeds History